Inside Upside Down and Backward Blog (9)

Hellooooooooooooooooooo…

Today’s recurrent theme is…walking on a tightrope. I feel ambiguous and perhaps lost. And then, I open my eyes, and I am all-together, walking on a tightrope.

The search to unlock and enhance my expression began with this video, embedding is disabled please click the link which will open in a new window for you. I had a very strange reaction while listening to his words and how he felt as he was doing the walk. It took my breath away in that often embarrassing manner when my eyes tear and my body shakes in awe. I do not often share this feeling with others. When I have tried, it seems that others cannot comprehend it, and I keep it private for the most part.

I took my eldest child to college this weekend. I noticed that the process was a lot like walking alongside someone with a terminal illness. I, of course, kept this to myself, trying to know what my daughter required of me and thinking not to be expressive in a manner which she dislikes. I could not tell, while observing the similarities in providing for a dear departing friend, if I was not really knowing what to do, or in a very balanced grounded state observing and coping nicely.

Several bits of my head say, I am confused. Some say, YAY!! Independence for meeee! Other parts say, Look at her goooo!!! Still other parts say, ok I let go of the bike, does she want me to walk away, or watch intently and to remove obstacles or catch the bike before she might fall. Yes, indeed I am walking a tightrope. Images in my mind show me silly things like lily-pads to jump on away from the imagined rope, but then they are just another place to choose to place my feet, one step at a time. I am thinking(thought) this blog after I located the video and the quotes that will follow. Both the quotes and the video helped me to express to the outside, or perhaps they did not help me, but I used them. Semantics are wonderful for expression, denial, and love.

I did not choose one quote today, as at the time of writing I wasn’t/am not completely finished exploring why this theme.

“A well-developed sense of humor is the pole that adds balance to your steps as you walk the tightrope of life.”
William Arthur Ward

“In the beginning you must subject yourself to the influence of nature. You must be able to walk firmly on the ground before you start walking on a tightrope.”
Henri Matisse

“In this day and time, with no competition you are really walking a tightrope. I mean you may think that no competition is good, but in reality no competition is really bad. ”
Jerry Lawler

“Life is always a tightrope or a feather bed. Give me the tightrope.”
Edith Wharton

“My wife says that stage acting is like being on a tightrope with no net, and being in the movies, there is a net – because you stop and go over it again. It’s very technical and mechanical. On stage you’re on your own.”
Eli Wallach

“Skill is successfully walking a tightrope between the twin towers of New York’s World Trade Center. Intelligence is not trying. ”
Marilyn vos Savant

“The leader can never close the gap between himself and the group. If he does, he is no longer what he must be. He must walk a tightrope between the consent he must win and the control he must exert. ”
Vince Lombardi

“The world may end up under a Sword of Damocles on a tightrope over the abyss.”
Andrei A. Gromyko

2 thoughts on “Inside Upside Down and Backward Blog (9)

  1. Coming a little late to your tightrope world and thinking about the tightropes we walk, especially in regard to our children. The days we don’t have to walk that tightrope are gifts. Had some tightrope moments lately with both kids…what to say? What not to say? How to express? What’s needed? What is too much and what is too little? It is a big tightrope moment, dropping a child off at college.

    How do you feel all these days later?

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  2. Well, the lovely child was rather..miss..I mean supremely independent without a means of contacting me for nearly a week. Of course I was stoic on the outside, mixing with angry and tears(in private mostly). Now, she has a new room mate, has picked up her medications, taken care of responsibilities AND has motivated friends to take the bus to get out and about in the city. She says they were a bit hesitant, but she is used to taking public transport from here.

    I got time to myself this weekend and I read and didn’t bother to do much at all!! I needed to collect my mind, I had shifted to many minds in many places BLAH!! This morning it is 45 degrees!! The house is clean, so I feel like baking and cooking!!! I also feel like a nice walk and perhaps some new photos.
    Thank you for asking Kathy. 🙂

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